blameless lost crowds were roaring.. deafening the ears of even the slightest insect.. it was indeed a huge crowd.. many chanting, supporting, screaming their lungs out.. different colours were shown all over the stadium as i walked in.. the light form the sun was blinding. unable to shut down my thoughts, i continue thinking how was i going to make it over today.. the previous night, i was getting ready to bathe, hopping that tmr will be a fine day, where to break personal best. but the night didn go as well.. took a step back and fell on my elbow, blood flow profusly down my arm, i panicked. and started blaming God.. well, is it acceptable? no its not.. i cant get any answer.. i am sorrie, it was just a moment of harsh words, i didn mean it, but than i couldn do anything.. i apologize a thousand times, but the pain on the arm still wun go away.. i was pissed off.. i started shouting.. i didn think it was fair.. after some medication and abit of thinking, i felt that it was wrong to blame Him. he has done so much for us and yet i am sitting there blaming Him for everything i done.. i m sorrie, i apologize greatly, pls accept my sincere apologize.. i realli didn mean it.. i ask Him for a personal best, i ask him for a good run, but he didn answered.. is he angry with me? i m not sure.. i hope not.. i pray not.. pls continue to guide me along.. i m truly sorrie.. amen..today, my 800m didn go that well..a 2.19minutes.. not a very strong timing.. *sighs*.. wat to do.. the start was good the middle was good the ending was good.. it was just good.. it was never the best? whyfore go constant when u are at the back? should i blame him again? no.. its too stupid.. i have to thank him for leading me though the 800m.. thank you.. so much.. i guess the only person i can blame is myself.. for not preparing, for not believing, and for not doing my best.. guess it is only me.. glad its just a relay, if its nationals. it wun be good. holiday in an blink of an eye is gone, my homework is half done.. guess i m just better of procrastinating.. it had to be today that i screwed up my race.. oh well, just live up that fact. get over it? besides nationals is coming and i have to worry more about my trainin tomorrow.. i realli hope to make it into top 6.. chances are slim but if there is a chance, why not grab it? i need to change everything about running.. focus on it.. cause i just wanna make top 6? do u think i can? or rather will u achieve it with me? than lets go.. ACX raramuri.. believe in it

crowds were roaring.. deafening the ears of even the slightest insect.. it was indeed a huge crowd.. many chanting, supporting, screaming their lungs out.. different colours were shown all over the stadium as i walked in.. the light form the sun was blinding. unable to shut down my thoughts, i continue thinking how was i going to make it over today.. the previous night, i was getting ready to bathe, hopping that tmr will be a fine day, where to break personal best. but the night didn go as well.. took a step back and fell on my elbow, blood flow profusly down my arm, i panicked. and started blaming God.. well, is it acceptable? no its not.. i cant get any answer.. i am sorrie, it was just a moment of harsh words, i didn mean it, but than i couldn do anything.. i apologize a thousand times, but the pain on the arm still wun go away.. i was pissed off.. i started shouting.. i didn think it was fair.. after some medication and abit of thinking, i felt that it was wrong to blame Him. he has done so much for us and yet i am sitting there blaming Him for everything i done.. i m sorrie, i apologize greatly, pls accept my sincere apologize.. i realli didn mean it.. i ask Him for a personal best, i ask him for a good run, but he didn answered.. is he angry with me? i m not sure.. i hope not.. i pray not.. pls continue to guide me along.. i m truly sorrie.. amen..
today, my 800m didn go that well..a 2.19minutes.. not a very strong timing.. *sighs*.. wat to do.. the start was good the middle was good the ending was good.. it was just good.. it was never the best? whyfore go constant when u are at the back? should i blame him again? no.. its too stupid.. i have to thank him for leading me though the 800m.. thank you.. so much.. i guess the only person i can blame is myself.. for not preparing, for not believing, and for not doing my best.. guess it is only me.. glad its just a relay, if its nationals. it wun be good. holiday in an blink of an eye is gone, my homework is half done.. guess i m just better of procrastinating.. it had to be today that i screwed up my race.. oh well, just live up that fact. get over it? besides nationals is coming and i have to worry more about my trainin tomorrow.. i realli hope to make it into top 6.. chances are slim but if there is a chance, why not grab it? i need to change everything about running.. focus on it.. cause i just wanna make top 6? do u think i can? or rather will u achieve it with me? than lets go.. ACX raramuri.. believe in it