its such a bad race. i cant believe i actually did a stupid 19minutes and 42seconds for a stupid 5km.. thats damn slow.. i mean i bet if people walk they would even be faster and yet i have the stupid cheek to smile when i m running.. wat a screw up day... stupid 5km i never wanna run it again.. 3km in more than 84s per round thats stupid...
such.. just felt like b.itching on the blog... i mean its just that i cant do anything about it now.. guess its over and i have to train hard.. such a bad day and a bad run.. good luck victor.. u need to train harder..!!
guess thats over..
finally getting down on my homework.. i feel like a workaholic nowadays.. no mood for anything except work and computer.. its life.. housework is still fun.. have to wait until thursday before a new maid arrive.. who cares..
my sisters are arriving back to0.. save me the trouble.. lol
i just feel like typing and typing cant stop. my legs are aching but my hands are itching to write..
i just wanna run.. never stop and look back.. just continue on and on.. until i find a way to revive myself from all thats hindering my progress.. one finals only.. not even 1 heat.. 27 guys running steeplechase plus superman,me, than i will fly past them and own...
i just wanna achieve something big for once.. at least in the running world.. i m done it in some other aspects.. now i m just back to square one.. just square one.. where the sides aren sharp. its laughing at me. telling me wat a loser i m. how slow i was.
i dun like being a loser.. i dun want to be one.. its stupid. its humiliating.. it sux..its no use.. i just cant be the one to achieve the big goals. i m always a shadow.. behind the person.. never the number one.. it sux.. it so hard to go on.. just running without a purpose.. no specific reason.. saying i love running is a big big lie..but why? i guess the best reason i can give is because of the team.. thats all.. my purpose in life isn realli fulfilled.. its just a waste of my time.. i m just tired.. no other reason.. cant give any.. i m just tired.. thats how i felt..
this post doesn make any sense. if u dun understand its ok.. if u do, u are not smart.. dun try to be who u aren.
its just how things goes.. sometimes its just better to enjoy life thats all..